原来我很害怕 I didn't know i was fearful

我很清楚自己的弱点。我最害怕的是什么，我真的太清楚了。今天，还是证实了，我害怕的东西，还真不少啊。。。

分离，很恐怖。死亡，自己并不可怕，但是朋友或亲人死了，我认为更可怕。一陷入那个无法再见到他们的想法，自然而然，我就觉得很可怕。所以，一段情的开始，我真的会很害怕。

上面那个嘛，就是Rave。我开始讨厌起这个作者，他怎么那么爱画人家死啊！！看得我。。。他们这个故事要结局了吧，所以很多人死了。看着同伴死是很痛苦的事。

我说过，稍微情绪化也不是坏事。但是，现在。。。。

我多么希望自己不情绪化！！


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我都不确定自己能不能入睡。


I'm very clear about my weakness. I understand myself too well. As of today, i found out that i was afraid of.....

Separation. It's scary. Death itself wasn't that scary compared to separation, at least that was my opinion.. But if it's a death of someone you cared about very much, someone dear, it's far more hurting. Once you thought of you couldn't meet them again in future, couldn't touch them, couldn't talk to them, the fear of losing them will overwhelm. Hence, doesn't it sound scary? So, whenever a relationship starts, i will be afraid.

The picture above is Rave. I kinda hate this guy who draw the manga now, cuz why the hell does he have to draw important people die??? Watching your comrade die in front of you is like hell!

I kinda said being emotional was okay once in a while, but now...

I wished i wasn't born this way!